{sick}

I didn't want to put a damper on my earlier post, but the only thing the stork

has actually brought me so far is sickness. Really really bad morning sickness

that, (surprise!) is not morning sickness at all.

It came all too fast right around 6 weeks and has been my constant companion

for the last 2 months. I lost 15 pounds, weighing in at a disgustingly skeletal-like 90

pounds. We unfortunately spent Thanksgiving in the ER getting fluids pumped into me

(who knew Saline could be so wonderful?).

It's been a bumpy road. My sweet husband has cooked, cleaned, done

laundry, gone shopping, and at times spoon fed and dressed me when I was too weak.

He's tirelessly rubbed my knot of a back, my feet, and played with my hair; anything

to ease the tireless nausea and tummy ache. It's like having a really bad flu for 2 months.

Other close friends and family have also pitched in cleaning, running errands, and bringing

us meals. My good friend Emylee even strung our Christmas tree with lights because

I was so excited about it but was too weak to do it myself.

I am a weeping mess right now as I write this because I am so aware of the many

angels in my life who have come to my aid in my time of need. And I couldn't

be more thankful for them. It is true that the Lord is aware of us, our every need,

and He will provide for us always. The only true peace on this earth can be found

in His loving arms. I know this now more than I ever have.

I am pleased to say that at my 12 week check-up, we heard the strong and very healthy

heart beat of our baby :) And 2 nights later, I slept ALL the way through the

night. Things have gradually been getting better since then. I'm to the point now

where I can walk into the kitchen without throwing up. I can get dressed without losing

my breath. And I've gained back 5 pounds.

We are crossing our fingers it just gets better from here :)

I know I should just be focusing on the fact that I'm feeling better with

this little one, but all I can think about are the 6 other kids Lance wants!

He assures me we can just take them one-by-one. :)